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The flood of it

Rushing into my body

Hands shaking, wanting to run

A knot in my stomach

A large stone in my throat

Quick breaths, short breaths

Breaths being held

Disorientated, distracted

Separated from reality and the now

Shame stares at me with its sly ugly grin

“It has been a while since I’ve seen you, love. How have you been?”

Anger steps in between us

A deep fire from within the belly

Quickly extinguished by guilt and tears

Is this it? Do I let the faucet run on?

Until I’m too tired to continue treading these salty waters?

Is this when I drown?

A ringing, trilling life preserve

A true dear friend on the other end

Pulling me back to shore with words of reassurance

Back to reality, back to the now

And just like that

The kids are fighting

The dog is at the door whining because someone has rung the doorbell

Supper is burning

And for some reason I’m holding onto a hairbrush

Continue on strong woman, you got this

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