Relapse
I thought tonight there was an unravelling I see it for what it is now. As the knots, the noose Repositioning itself Around my neck, my wrists, my ankles Bound. No longer unbound All that work, all that energy Spent loosening, stripping away. Unbecoming All the lies and stories I told myself Flooding back in a flash Settling in. Burrowing deep Did those tears count? Those tears forced from my eyes From all the retching and weariness? I'm so sorry little baby bubble I want to cry for you I want to break down. I yearn for release As my womb continues to empty itself of the presence of you As I sift through the debris and search you out And find you As I hold you. Keep you Fold you into a napkin and store you away into an empty prescription bottle And there you sit, by the kitchen sink Waiting for me to decide the next move Waiting to be wrapped in love and apologies Waiting for the tears to fall And I pray in earnest, that you have reentered into the web T...